All I could hear was the sound of the clock, ticking on the wall. 8.08 pm it said. Without knowing it, I have been lying here on my bed for 2 hours, yet, I just could not fall asleep. I got up and took a peek to the outside world. The moon was nowhere to be found and the city looked so dark. The water-drops kept falling from the faucet and its sound somehow rhymed with the clock.
I looked around my empty and dark apartment. My cell was lying on the bed, not making a single move. On the lamp table beside the bed, there lied a photograph, up-side-down. I did not bother to flip it. I did not want to. I felt like tearing it apart, or shoving it to the trash, but I could not bring myself to do it.
The silent cell suddenly started making sounds, my ringtone. Unwillingly, I walked towards my bed and reached towards my cell. I saw a name, a name I did not expect to see.
My heart stopped beating for a second and my mind went blank. I could feel my mouth went open but not making any sound. My hand started to shake, and so were my feet. My thumb was ready at the button that would make the apartment returned to the original state - silent. I did not now what made me hesitate but I just did. I was so sure that I did not want to talk to that man, the man who tore my dreams, the man who was my everything.
"I need to put an end to all of these," I thought.
Slowly, my finger reached toward the green button and pressed it.
I did not say a word, not making a sound. The voice on the other side started to speak.
"I am surprised you did not hang up," he said. His voice was the same as ever, still the voice I missed.
"What do you want?" I said with cold yet wavered voice.
"... How are you doing?" he asked.
"If there is nothing important you want to talk about, I'm hanging up."
"Wait. Don't hang up," he suddenly sounded so serious. Hearing his serious tone, I my heart jumped a little. "Can you step out of you apartment for a minute?"
"What? Don't tell me..."
I hurriedly run out to the outside but I found no one. I got a little... upset.
"Now look down." He said.
From the 9th level, I looked down to the streets. From the darkness a man descended. Even with those distance, I could still recognize the person. It has been a while since the last time I saw him - maybe about a month. Once again, my mind went blank. By just looking at his figure, all of the memories I had with him started playing in my mind, and it felt like a sweet torture.
"There is something important I need to tell you. The truth it is."
The cold breeze, the darkness, they did not matter anymore. All I could think about was what he was going to say.
"You still remember the last time we fought?" He asked.
I remained silent.
"I said a lot of awful things to you, didn't I? But what I said that time, were all lies. I actually finds it cute each time you got jealous and each time you sulked. I love spending my times with you. I love your sudden call in the middle of the night. Every single thing you do... I just..."
Tears started filling up my eyes. Hearing his words... I just did not know if I could believe in his words. But I could hear the change in his voice - his voice was shaking. I have never heard him like that. It was as if he was about to burst in tears. From afar, I saw him hiding his eyes with his left hand.
"I'm sorry for those mean things I've said to you. I'm sorry for the things I did that hurt you. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry!" He started to cry.
This was the first time I ever saw a guy crying. My tears too started coming down my cheek. I saw him got on his knees and my feet started to move by themselves. I ran to the elevator but it took so long so I decided to take the stairs. I descended the stairs as fast as I could. Once I got to the ground, I ran towards him. He was still on his knees and still weeping. As I got closer, he noticed my presence and lift his head. I saw the tears on his face and the pain in his eyes.
"Please give me one more chance. I truly am sorry... I need you... I... I love..."
Without waiting him to finish his sentence, I went to his embrace and hugged him tight. I could feel sincerity in his words, in his tears.
"You do not need to say anything. It's alright. I love you. I love you!" I said.
As I said those three words, he started to hug me tightly and it became kind of hard to breathe - but I did not mind. His voice, his warmth, his touch, I've been longing for all of them. I lift his face and wiped his tears with my sleeve. He looked into my eyes and so I did. He leaned his face closer to mine and I closed my eyes. I could feel his wavering lips landed on mine.
The kiss, it felt really sweet.
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